Finally, the future is canceled.
Concealed beneath this too dry soil
is one of several spectators to this panic.
Well now, there’s something to sneeze at.
Lick the dust from my bones,
O specter of crass commercialism.
Old truisms don’t sustain us,
it’s the other way around,
as in age feeds on youth.
Dazed to extremity
in this wasteland of jargon,
let’s at least misrepresent ourselves
with panache. Smash post-cultural malaise
with a smile. Meanwhile, my inner vision
is eating itself out of boredom.
The kingdom of heaven’s been rebuked.
Shifting the several,
mimics dull and duty.
Aggregate beauty fetishized in tow.
Apologetic apostrophes in a row
beside the raw image.
Isn’t that neat or niceness or negation?
Ease up on the exaltation, champ.
Stamp the sequence
with a sense of boundary, foreclosure.
Up next composure
clicks into gear,
to steer all meaning
toward an ever deepening fade.
What does the light here
taste like? Sweat, inner turmoil,
wet rocks and bone. Nightly,
I pull the voices of dead poets
from this ashes this light leaves.
I arrange these voices
in a cacophonous cluster,
plug my ears with wet sponges,
and turn whatever words
that manage to break through
into lovely little lullabies, which
don’t taste like the light.
I don’t dictate like a didact,
that’s my own upending.
Disenchantment fractures, quells friction.
This isn’t what my addiction stipulates.
Describe comatose fragmentary fails
but correct likening. In sweeps,
in slander, so what slivers.
My oh my freak arabesque.
Slow rumination, I shoulder esoteric,
core profusion and disrupt the now.
The laughingstock or transitory conflagration.
Come up well, solely drip. Lastly, closure.
Here it is – the moment
we’ve been training for.
Spent years and years preparing for,
gathering supplies for, living for.
And it all comes down
with an anti-climactic plop,
like a rock you tried to skip,
but whose shape was slightly off,
and rather than skimming
the water’s reflective surface,
toward its filthy depths.
Of course, improper shape
isn’t the issue here. So what is?
We discuss it over cheap beer
and even cheaper cigarettes,
offering up new interpretations
between sips and drags,
but none of them stick,
none of them has that “it” factor
you so often hear about
in corporate meetings.
So we get to talking
about life up until now,
the halcyon days I think they’re called,
and while no new light is being shed
on present circumstances,
it is pleasurable, mildly,
to rehash those old tall tales
we lived through once before.
Lies an innuendo breathe
through ill-lit social circles,
a miasma for the faint-of-heart
to relish. Relinquish deliciously
that which keeps hostage.
I’m not captivated, simply inundated.
Certainly, the light of the ill-fated diminishes…
But not discretely. A pale hand moves
to cover the camera eye.
The sky is a flat gray wall
which no color can breach.
Reach out to the margins, children.
Sleepily in the substantive,
motives move and muscle.
Rude fuss ensues.
Fuse, politely blown.